I didn’t go too far this time

Wasn’t thinking bout no weddings rings

I know it was me and you

I know we said somethings and did somethings

But telling her, “Now is not the time.”

Was the beginning of the ending of everything

‘Cuz now I feel my happiness unraveling 

As it always does this time of year

April is consistently my worst month

And it’s crazy how it’s within the season of spring 

Yet with me, everything around is falling

I always lose and never seem to win

I was looking forward to the summer, but by then she’ll be long gone

And I’ll be left pondering in my thoughts, wondering if what I did was all wrong

Everybody has somebody 

And look at us, for a moment we had each other

Did you know you snore a little when you slumber?

Yeah that droning on would lull me straight to sleep

But you would stir and pull me out 

Save me from going too deep

With you, I never needed to count sheep

Oh how I wish I could go back in time

To when you were in my arms, so safe so warm

To when I had confidence that one day you’d be mine.

I’m done

It’s until I touch 25

Pops said keep your friendships with these females alive 

Relationships will come 

But now is not the time

So maybe I need to slow down and take a bigger break

Or cut the brakes and jump off this cursed train

Cuz it’s April and the ice below is getting thin

Maybe by the time I touch 25

I would’ve found a way to win

And it’d be the beginning of new beginnings 

‘Cuz I’m tired of all these endings

And I’m tired of not pretending 

But saying “I love you,” has started not to mean a thing 

Don’t you ever, get too close to the Sun

‘Cuz that would lead 

To the Ending of Everything.

(10/4/23)